Here we are at the beginning of a new year. Already. Again. In the past I have been guilty of making (unattainable) resolutions. My list for 2014 was a bit… ambitious. Needless to say, most of those are still unaccomplished. My pregnancy for most of the year thwarted a few of them, but the rest are my own laziness or lack of resources & motivation.
This year, rather than give myself a list of things that I’ll likely not do and thus feel a bit guilty over, I’m going to focus on just one word. (Here‘s where the idea came from, in case you’re interested.) I did a devotion on my Bible app that focused on this ‘one word’ resolution concept, and it seemed like something that would be a bit more attainable.
I began to think over this last year… What was I missing? What did I do? Where had I changed? Then, I thought about the coming year… What do I want to change? How do I want my life to be?
The thing that kept coming to mind was that I don’t want to miss anything. I feel like I’m constantly doing something, even if that something is adding no value to my life, there’s always something. Many times, they are distractions from where I want to be and who I want to be.
I’ve been looking at my 8-year-old lately and looking at photos of her from just a few months or a year ago, and I wonder where the time has gone. She’s changed so much, both physically and in other ways as well. Now I have a 1-month-old, and I’m (vaguely) remembering how quickly that first year goes. It’s already been a month since she was born!!! Time just slips away too easily if we’re not paying attention, if we’re not really engaged in the moment.
So, the word that kept coming up for me was…
My ‘one word resolution’ and focus this year is PRESENT. I want to be present in each day, ideally, in each moment.
I want to be present in my children’s lives. I want to be actively engaged in what they are doing. I don’t want to miss these years because I’m distracted by other things. I want to take time to really play with them, read with them, sing to them, dance with them, cuddle with them, etc. I want to be there with them. REALLY there. I don’t just want to be a prop.
I want to be present in my business. If I’m going to really take it to the next level, I need to be stretching myself as an artist. I need to be actively observing the world around me and taking notes. I can’t just be a bystander.
Last, but not least, I want to be present in my time with my Savior. This past year I have been so distracted. Part of that is due to pregnancy sleepiness/hormones/stress/etc., but part of it is just me. When I’m at church or studying at home, I want to be fully invested in what I’m hearing or reading or doing. I don’t want to just “go through the motions”.
In 2015, I want to be a full-on participant in whatever I’m doing, whatever is going on around me. I don’t want to get to the end of the year and wonder where it went and whine about how quickly time flies. This year I’m hoping to end the year and say, “That was a GREAT year, and I was there for ALL of it!”
Happy New Year to you and yours!! We wish you many smiles and much laughter for the new year!