Sometimes you just need a kick to the tush in order to get you moving!
One of my biggest kicks happened about 5 years and 1 week ago when my husband left me, and my daughter and I moved from Washington state back to Illinois. I had lost so much of myself in my marriage. I became wrapped up in him and his wants, and I absorbed his criticisms. I had nearly completely stopped creating anything.
The second big kick came when I was told my temporary living arrangements had ended. That kick took me from central Illinois all the way to central Kentucky.
I’ve had a bunch of mini-kicks along the way that have reminded me who I am, or what I need to do, or have simply inspired me to something greater. There have been a lot of little pushes and tuggings that have lit my fire again in the past couple of months. To be honest, my Christmas sales are a big factor. It has renewed my confidence in my own abilities. Confidence in my talent has been something I’ve lacked for too long, partially due to lingering criticisms from my ex-husband, but mostly it’s my own doing. It’s something I’m working on building as quickly as possible.
Until a few months ago, I had stopped experimenting. I was afraid to try out my own ideas. I’ve been afraid to draw and paint. I used to love painting. I still do, but I’m terrified to get it wrong. I can’t seem to escape my own inhibitions. It’s just been so long since I’ve really painted that it’s not as easy for me as it used to be.
Well, now is the time of year we all make resolutions. I’m starting 2013 more resolved than ever to live the dream. I am an artist. I was born an artist. I’m going to BE an artist. I feel like I’ve been pretending, going through the motions, because I’ve lacked the confidence to go all in.
For 2013, I’m all in.
If there’s something you’ve not been doing out of fear or lack of confidence or whatever it may be, let 2013 be the year that you dive right in. Strip off your insecurities, inhibitions, fears, and criticisms, and dive into your dreams and passions, skinny dippin’ style!